and i'm not scared, i love being productive
wow i haven't even taken anything yet and i'm already feverish. walking home in sub zero weather with a skirt on could be blamed too.

i've found if people don't find you attractive in some way, they're less inclined to listen to you.

i need to shower and finish my european history reading/worksheets but instead i'm going to sit here and write about it.

i've been remembering why i idolized courtney and kurt to death in 8th grade and from a detached viewpoint it could be seen as backsliding.
because..
I’m so happy ’cause today
I’ve found my friends ...
They’re in my head
I’m so ugly, but that’s okay, ’cause so are you and so on and so on.

i deal with my lack of problems by creating some.
always the constructive girl.
but i don't get addicted, cause i lack the gene.

i've made new friends who are young and exuberant and full of life and subsequently
clear-skinned.
i wish i was free like them. but i'm working on it.

ha i might be clinically depressed or something. my lethargy permeates all aspects of my life. here i was thinking that was the teenage condition.

this week: 45 grave
upcoming weekend: get job (i've already saved 30 bucks for the bass.)

good mourning and good night.